Humans are so incredible. Out of this massively distorted world, we find meaning, often post grinding misery, and constantly rewrite our stories and our understanding and then whops, let's do that again.
It's impossible to be a healthy sovereign being in this world without creating all kinds of by-passes, check-outs, and all the rest of it. We don't know what we don't know but proceed because we must.
I think of Nicola Tesla and Vincent van Gogh. So much brilliance and feeling and commitment in a world that couldn't really receive them, wasn't set up for them, yet beautiful, sad legacies.
Somewhere inside I think most of us know this is a temporary experience, (what's really ours can't be lost) and that embodied life is both precious and fragile yet so confining compared to our larger selves, we battle these two things and all try to find a way to be responsible here while holding it lightly.
You weave so well, Guy. I will go back now and listen to your playlist. Best.
What a journey, Guy. You're hard on yourself for not making the right choices but it's hard to see what good choices were there to make. The divorce process is a major part of the dysfunction in our economic system. Curious that Canada doesn't make alimony deductible. Trump made that change here, that it wasn't, for divorces after 2018, when mine was finalized after 30 months of negotiation. That was a bonanza year for lawyers because everyone, even those on the fence about getting divorced, suddenly needed to do it that year. The lack of deductibility makes no sense. I've really puzzled over what benefit it has to the overseer class. Glad you made it through to the place you are now.
It is interesting that you were taught that " money was powerful and evil and that poverty is the gateway to authenticity and salvation". I was taught the opposite, coming from a wealthy family with every priviledge and have subected myself to poverty in order to learn things about myself, including the fact that I remained compliant to a narcissist father in order to stay 'in the will' 😂 Fascinating how we create our complex stories in order to learn what we need to learn. In my case even giving away a house to an unfaithful ex-boyfriend in order to remain 'untainted' by the grasping greed of solicitors battling it out over money! Including rejecting the pension of an ex-husband who had behaved badly and bringing up two children without his financial assistance to 'prove' something to myself. As well as not owning anything in order to discover this authenticity and salvation of which we speak. Ha ha. Maybe it would have been better to just constantly beat myself with a stick? It might have been more honest! Yet I still see examples of rich people being arseholes and I would like to be shown an example of someone who was wealthy and also generous, aware, compassionate, without believing that their generous altruism made them god like! Remaining un vaxd was the final straw that has cast me out of the will and into true poverty so seems like I have manifested everything I dreamed of ha ha Life has an amazing sense of humour.
Also really enjoying the playlist. Abba is my daughters' go-to karaoke so Money money money is very familiar. So far I found Cleopatra the danciest but maybe because belly dance is one of the genres we study in Worldanz. And 9 to 5 is funny, my youngest just started her first office job and the oldest got her a mug that said, "Pour yourself a cup of ambition." I've still never seen the film but I might need to.
Humans are so incredible. Out of this massively distorted world, we find meaning, often post grinding misery, and constantly rewrite our stories and our understanding and then whops, let's do that again.
It's impossible to be a healthy sovereign being in this world without creating all kinds of by-passes, check-outs, and all the rest of it. We don't know what we don't know but proceed because we must.
I think of Nicola Tesla and Vincent van Gogh. So much brilliance and feeling and commitment in a world that couldn't really receive them, wasn't set up for them, yet beautiful, sad legacies.
Somewhere inside I think most of us know this is a temporary experience, (what's really ours can't be lost) and that embodied life is both precious and fragile yet so confining compared to our larger selves, we battle these two things and all try to find a way to be responsible here while holding it lightly.
You weave so well, Guy. I will go back now and listen to your playlist. Best.
What a journey, Guy. You're hard on yourself for not making the right choices but it's hard to see what good choices were there to make. The divorce process is a major part of the dysfunction in our economic system. Curious that Canada doesn't make alimony deductible. Trump made that change here, that it wasn't, for divorces after 2018, when mine was finalized after 30 months of negotiation. That was a bonanza year for lawyers because everyone, even those on the fence about getting divorced, suddenly needed to do it that year. The lack of deductibility makes no sense. I've really puzzled over what benefit it has to the overseer class. Glad you made it through to the place you are now.
It is interesting that you were taught that " money was powerful and evil and that poverty is the gateway to authenticity and salvation". I was taught the opposite, coming from a wealthy family with every priviledge and have subected myself to poverty in order to learn things about myself, including the fact that I remained compliant to a narcissist father in order to stay 'in the will' 😂 Fascinating how we create our complex stories in order to learn what we need to learn. In my case even giving away a house to an unfaithful ex-boyfriend in order to remain 'untainted' by the grasping greed of solicitors battling it out over money! Including rejecting the pension of an ex-husband who had behaved badly and bringing up two children without his financial assistance to 'prove' something to myself. As well as not owning anything in order to discover this authenticity and salvation of which we speak. Ha ha. Maybe it would have been better to just constantly beat myself with a stick? It might have been more honest! Yet I still see examples of rich people being arseholes and I would like to be shown an example of someone who was wealthy and also generous, aware, compassionate, without believing that their generous altruism made them god like! Remaining un vaxd was the final straw that has cast me out of the will and into true poverty so seems like I have manifested everything I dreamed of ha ha Life has an amazing sense of humour.
Also really enjoying the playlist. Abba is my daughters' go-to karaoke so Money money money is very familiar. So far I found Cleopatra the danciest but maybe because belly dance is one of the genres we study in Worldanz. And 9 to 5 is funny, my youngest just started her first office job and the oldest got her a mug that said, "Pour yourself a cup of ambition." I've still never seen the film but I might need to.