Wow! This really resonated with me Guy. I so enjoyed reading someone articulate so much better than I could something I also feel so instinctively.
Someone gave me a collection of Krishnamurti booklets two years ago and I realised quickly they were not for me and listed them on eBay! I could not have put it into the words you have, but I am one who is not looking for a guru and after reading some of the essays I could see that the approach was not for me either. I had to work more from ‘my body’ and understand that childhood years of brainwashing had led to so called ‘auto immune’ disorders. My body was attacking itself to try and wake me up. I was started on this journey by The Myth of Normal by Gabor Mate as I had read a couple of his books before.
What I find interesting is to speak to some people about their journey that have not been weakened and damaged in childhood, and I have a friend in this category, who I have known for nearly 50 years, and she has no concept of what this damage might look like and no tolerance of it either, despite working on herself deeply and being on her own path of understanding. Which I find fascinating to be honest.
This is a great sentence, “It is an error to assume that once the path has been discarded, that it wasn’t an important, or even key part, of the intelligent and heartfelt awareness of realising the true by seeing with vidya, clear eyes.”
There is much to unpack in this essay and I will read it again.
Yes, the people who have not been traumatised into deep disconnection often find us to be rather inscrutable puzzles. Some, those who have been traumatised without having been completely disembodied, may find us somewhat frustrating and intolerable because we will trigger them to a trauma that has been inadequately addressed, if addressed at all.
You will likely find the part 2 of this ... not sure of the adjective to put there. You'll see. As I was writing it, I stood up puzzled, and literaly did my PS-RAP (psyche-somatic resonance awareness process) asking 'You want me to write this?' 'Yes.' 'I'm going in the right direction?' 'Yes.' It was sometime after that that I had the AHA that K was an embodiment of my mother. Wow! I wouldn't have seen that coming, and so in a sense this essay is both a continuation and a bridge to my next Dear Terry epistle.
I haven't forgotten your request. I am getting myself in order, both through these kinds of writings, and more pragmatically in logistical life, to offer my help. Expect my response before the end of the week.
Thank you for reading and I am so gobsmacked that my writing has been helpful to you. That my essays have helped even one person beyond 'just' me is so huge. (And my subscriptions are steadily building! That has also been amazing and a form of completing the writing process — being read.)
It took me a long time to understand that this was the case Guy. Why do I trigger people so much? Why do people insist on 'seeing' me incorrectly? Why do people dislike 'something' about me that I know isn't what I intended? Then I understood that firstly I was continually recreating my own hell loop at not being heard and secondly, my constant enquiry set off bombs in other peoples lives that were not my responsibility but I believed were my fault because of ..... my own deep insecurity at not being heard. Now I feel better equipped to 'separate the tasks' as Adler would put it. To see what is my business and what is your business as it were. It is great to read your journey and to feel better about myself for asking so many many questions, to see someone else allow that too. I have made interesting progress in the last week which I will share when you are ready but (and I know I don't need to say this because you understand the importance of right timing in your life) there is no rush! xx
“Jordan Peterson points out that pretty much everyone in the classroom imagines that they will be the person protecting Anne Frank, not the one who is hunting her or ready to rat her out. The reality is that most likely no one in the class would have protected her. And, as it turns, Peterson, the ‘poster boy’ for spotting tyranny in the woke world didn’t see the medical tyranny happening and bowed to mandate pressures. He was, as he had accurately cautioned in his class, one of those who sold out Anne Frank.”
I wonder how your friend Tereza would reconcile that? She’s been debating with me on her Substack to the point of mildly attacking my character when I’ve pointed out that everyone is selfish. None are above malfeasance. I guess she thinks laws were written for those miscreants “over there” but not in her righteous circle.
Covid malfeasance couldn’t have happened if it handn’t triggered the greatest example of human mass selfishness in our lifetimes. Examples are everywhere. Yet, if we keep ignoring that and insisting it was those bad people over there that did it to us, it’ll happen again, and again, and again. We need to reconcile our culpability.
Carl brought me back to your comment. My reply to your astute and perspicacious observations got lost in a plethora. I'll come back to it. In recent weeks I have encountered some additiional sources of ... knowledge? awareness? information? that may have some correspondence witih your comment. Thank you for your great comment.
I have commented to Guy before that I believe selfishness is the one instinct humans are born with. A helpless infant must be selfish and squall for its food and care. It is an instinct we can outgrow, but it is still a part of our genetic code. So, people have the capacity for both good and evil. It is possible for anyone to throw their good character out the window and rat out Anne Frank. However, there are people who would and will not no matter the consequences. If not, there would be no Medal of Honor recipients. Selflessness has replaced selfishness.
I can support what you are saying about human nature; yet, Tereza may have a point also. The Covid crisis probably happened because cultural conditions were groomed over generations to a point that “the powers that shouldn’t be” (as James Corbett of thecorbettreport.com would put it) were able to make it happen. Our culture of entitlement in the West must be changed back to that of R W Emerson’s “Self Reliance”, or as you say, it will happen again.
I feel I have little to say on these matters now. I just want to kick over the water pitcher when asked what it is. I’m compelled to move towards experience - the felt presence of immediate experience. Thoroughly enjoyed the read however. Can’t help but shake this knotted feeling of outside in, inside out, black to white, up to down, heaven to hell, bad to good and thinking to feel ... and I consign all the blame to this wretched thing we call language.
Hello, Dollyboy, Australian libertine extraordinaire. Your great descriptive comment brought a lovely smile to my face. Yes, language! The problem we humans are born into, like it is a complicated game in which we tangle ourselves into knots and then look to figure our way out of them again. Kind of like the escape artist being put into various jackets and contraptions.
In the case of language it would seem that most of us resist going into truly 'just' experience. Although I have come to understand that that was *really* what Gautama taught, not what Buddhism became.
And then, even experience has the challenge of the trauma of life! I'm currently in the process of doing a deep dive to remove trauma with a very powerful energy healer here in Mexico. On Thursday she addressed blocked restricted sexaul energy, and asked me after touching a point, 'Were you sexually assaulted when you were a child?' And yes, it turns out that that has been an awareness of my past. Remarkable.
And so... is language one of the ways traumatic events gets split up to allow our survival at the time? And which then quickly becomes a samskara that traps us in words? Interesting. Words as the means of survival that then trap us in patterns of self-destruction.
And even that is complicated by traumas that occur, as some of it did with me, before language is developed.
Glad you enjoyed the read because I really enjoyed writing it.
Hello, Guy! I found you from your recent comment on William Hunter Duncan's Substack. This is the first of your articles I read, and I love it! I think that some of your ideas and mine may intersect nicely and create more true synchronicities. Thank you for your work, and I look forward to reading more of it!
Great to meet you here, in substack world a rather remarkable world comprised of a wide range of diverse and amazing people. (And I love the title of your stack! Such a great play on just one word.)
I am happy and even delighted to be joined by a synchronicity fiend! And I look forward to how they will expand with us and the other 'us's that live here on the planet and are becoming increasingly concentrated here in substack world.
I read your travelogue post and... maybe you will find my travelogue interesting. It is capturing my journey with my partner into becoming covid refugees. I have yet to catch it up to the present moment. My last travelogue post approaches my and my partner's final weeks in Canada before choosing to become covid refugees. (I have 10 travelogue posts, so far: I have numbered them, so they are distinct from the 'regular' essays.)
So, in case you are interested - no pressure - here is the last one. It links to the first one.
"To know and see the molecules that she is made of and that she is a part of. And then to see them re-connect back into her life with the best outcome, to manifest what is moving her forward, and at the same time to not restore those things that no longer serve. An amazing aperigraha process, of letting go what no longer serves..."
I know that you read my comment with Michael S yesterday, so I won't explain the synchronicity here, but I made that comment before I read your beautiful essay.
Seeing the molecules that you are made of and reconnecting them in, leaving behind that which no longer serves, reminds me of the central channel breath work that I have been work to integrate into the studio. In The Energy Codes, by Sue Morter, she doesn't describe energy as necessarlily being stuck, although she acknowledges that "stuck" is often how others describe it.
She articulates it as areas that have been dis-integrated..or lack the circuitry to allow the energy to move optimally. Her central channel breathing practices pull the energy no longer serving into the central channel and allow it to either re-integrate or be moved through and grounded. The approach of seeing the molecules we are made of and re-connecting them sounds very similar and I love it.
What a beautiful insight to see Terry in the flawed, lazy logic and guidance of Krishnamurti. A cathartic integration of her presence in your life. 🙏🏼
This is so great. The synchronicity and more so your beautiful articulation and extension of this idea. Thank you for sharing this so beautifully with me.
My hip is doing quite a bit better, especially after the Krishnamurti Pt2 essay. OMG! That had me more triggered than the Tigger tiggered. A fascinating process of really deep shadow work coming out through this amazing thing called a body. And what an amazing perfectly timed process, arrived at without overt planning, an Terry arc. Life has a wicked sense of humour.
Were you familiar with Krishnamurti before reading this essay?
And soon to begin Terry, Pt 2. Challenging, be it will too. Good night,
I was not familiar with Krishnamurti before your essay. I enjoyed my introduction through your lens. Your perspective always resonates in a way that has volume for me. I think this is because we have a great deal of shared life, you and I. Although in different times and places, and along different paths, we traversed similar terrain. Sometimes I feel like our higher selves might be hiking together somewhere beautiful....there are a few others, particularly here in this unique Substack land, that I think might be on the journey too.
All that to say...I am really enjoying the hike ;)
I'll look forward to reading how your hip is unraveling in Part 2!
Sending strength and clarity for Terry's next chapter....
"Sometimes I feel like our higher selves might be hiking together somewhere beautiful....there are a few others, particularly here in this unique Substack land, that I think might be on the journey too."
Yes, yes and yes! When I read this my entire body shivered with recognition and the joy of this truth. My hairs stood up and hummed with the resonance and even joy. Nothing like an attempted genocide to give us the opportunity to experience the deepest joy. Life really does have a wicked sense of humour in its world of wonders.
From 'Born Under Punches (the Heat Goes On)'
All I want is to breathe (I'm too thin)
Won't you breathe with me?
Find a little space so we move in-between (In-between it)
And keep one step ahead of yourself
Some of Byrne's lyrics are rather astounding!
Here is a live version of that song, from 1980, that I think is remarkable. I have no idea what your taste in music is so... well, I'll share this link.
I am honoured and delighted to be walking here on Terra Firma with you even though we are in distant lands, and shoulder to shoulder in the energy sphere of who we are as higher energy.
And the part 2 of Krishnamurti is... well. It was a tough one. Preparation for Terry 2.
Wow! This really resonated with me Guy. I so enjoyed reading someone articulate so much better than I could something I also feel so instinctively.
Someone gave me a collection of Krishnamurti booklets two years ago and I realised quickly they were not for me and listed them on eBay! I could not have put it into the words you have, but I am one who is not looking for a guru and after reading some of the essays I could see that the approach was not for me either. I had to work more from ‘my body’ and understand that childhood years of brainwashing had led to so called ‘auto immune’ disorders. My body was attacking itself to try and wake me up. I was started on this journey by The Myth of Normal by Gabor Mate as I had read a couple of his books before.
What I find interesting is to speak to some people about their journey that have not been weakened and damaged in childhood, and I have a friend in this category, who I have known for nearly 50 years, and she has no concept of what this damage might look like and no tolerance of it either, despite working on herself deeply and being on her own path of understanding. Which I find fascinating to be honest.
This is a great sentence, “It is an error to assume that once the path has been discarded, that it wasn’t an important, or even key part, of the intelligent and heartfelt awareness of realising the true by seeing with vidya, clear eyes.”
There is much to unpack in this essay and I will read it again.
Hola, April.
Yes, the people who have not been traumatised into deep disconnection often find us to be rather inscrutable puzzles. Some, those who have been traumatised without having been completely disembodied, may find us somewhat frustrating and intolerable because we will trigger them to a trauma that has been inadequately addressed, if addressed at all.
You will likely find the part 2 of this ... not sure of the adjective to put there. You'll see. As I was writing it, I stood up puzzled, and literaly did my PS-RAP (psyche-somatic resonance awareness process) asking 'You want me to write this?' 'Yes.' 'I'm going in the right direction?' 'Yes.' It was sometime after that that I had the AHA that K was an embodiment of my mother. Wow! I wouldn't have seen that coming, and so in a sense this essay is both a continuation and a bridge to my next Dear Terry epistle.
I haven't forgotten your request. I am getting myself in order, both through these kinds of writings, and more pragmatically in logistical life, to offer my help. Expect my response before the end of the week.
Thank you for reading and I am so gobsmacked that my writing has been helpful to you. That my essays have helped even one person beyond 'just' me is so huge. (And my subscriptions are steadily building! That has also been amazing and a form of completing the writing process — being read.)
Muchas gracias.
😀🧘🏿♀️❤️🙏🙌☯️☯️🙌🙏❤️🧘🏿♀️😀
It took me a long time to understand that this was the case Guy. Why do I trigger people so much? Why do people insist on 'seeing' me incorrectly? Why do people dislike 'something' about me that I know isn't what I intended? Then I understood that firstly I was continually recreating my own hell loop at not being heard and secondly, my constant enquiry set off bombs in other peoples lives that were not my responsibility but I believed were my fault because of ..... my own deep insecurity at not being heard. Now I feel better equipped to 'separate the tasks' as Adler would put it. To see what is my business and what is your business as it were. It is great to read your journey and to feel better about myself for asking so many many questions, to see someone else allow that too. I have made interesting progress in the last week which I will share when you are ready but (and I know I don't need to say this because you understand the importance of right timing in your life) there is no rush! xx
🙏❤️🙏
“Jordan Peterson points out that pretty much everyone in the classroom imagines that they will be the person protecting Anne Frank, not the one who is hunting her or ready to rat her out. The reality is that most likely no one in the class would have protected her. And, as it turns, Peterson, the ‘poster boy’ for spotting tyranny in the woke world didn’t see the medical tyranny happening and bowed to mandate pressures. He was, as he had accurately cautioned in his class, one of those who sold out Anne Frank.”
I wonder how your friend Tereza would reconcile that? She’s been debating with me on her Substack to the point of mildly attacking my character when I’ve pointed out that everyone is selfish. None are above malfeasance. I guess she thinks laws were written for those miscreants “over there” but not in her righteous circle.
Covid malfeasance couldn’t have happened if it handn’t triggered the greatest example of human mass selfishness in our lifetimes. Examples are everywhere. Yet, if we keep ignoring that and insisting it was those bad people over there that did it to us, it’ll happen again, and again, and again. We need to reconcile our culpability.
Hola GLK.
Carl brought me back to your comment. My reply to your astute and perspicacious observations got lost in a plethora. I'll come back to it. In recent weeks I have encountered some additiional sources of ... knowledge? awareness? information? that may have some correspondence witih your comment. Thank you for your great comment.
I have commented to Guy before that I believe selfishness is the one instinct humans are born with. A helpless infant must be selfish and squall for its food and care. It is an instinct we can outgrow, but it is still a part of our genetic code. So, people have the capacity for both good and evil. It is possible for anyone to throw their good character out the window and rat out Anne Frank. However, there are people who would and will not no matter the consequences. If not, there would be no Medal of Honor recipients. Selflessness has replaced selfishness.
I can support what you are saying about human nature; yet, Tereza may have a point also. The Covid crisis probably happened because cultural conditions were groomed over generations to a point that “the powers that shouldn’t be” (as James Corbett of thecorbettreport.com would put it) were able to make it happen. Our culture of entitlement in the West must be changed back to that of R W Emerson’s “Self Reliance”, or as you say, it will happen again.
Agree 100%
I feel I have little to say on these matters now. I just want to kick over the water pitcher when asked what it is. I’m compelled to move towards experience - the felt presence of immediate experience. Thoroughly enjoyed the read however. Can’t help but shake this knotted feeling of outside in, inside out, black to white, up to down, heaven to hell, bad to good and thinking to feel ... and I consign all the blame to this wretched thing we call language.
Hello, Dollyboy, Australian libertine extraordinaire. Your great descriptive comment brought a lovely smile to my face. Yes, language! The problem we humans are born into, like it is a complicated game in which we tangle ourselves into knots and then look to figure our way out of them again. Kind of like the escape artist being put into various jackets and contraptions.
In the case of language it would seem that most of us resist going into truly 'just' experience. Although I have come to understand that that was *really* what Gautama taught, not what Buddhism became.
And then, even experience has the challenge of the trauma of life! I'm currently in the process of doing a deep dive to remove trauma with a very powerful energy healer here in Mexico. On Thursday she addressed blocked restricted sexaul energy, and asked me after touching a point, 'Were you sexually assaulted when you were a child?' And yes, it turns out that that has been an awareness of my past. Remarkable.
And so... is language one of the ways traumatic events gets split up to allow our survival at the time? And which then quickly becomes a samskara that traps us in words? Interesting. Words as the means of survival that then trap us in patterns of self-destruction.
And even that is complicated by traumas that occur, as some of it did with me, before language is developed.
Glad you enjoyed the read because I really enjoyed writing it.
Hello, Guy! I found you from your recent comment on William Hunter Duncan's Substack. This is the first of your articles I read, and I love it! I think that some of your ideas and mine may intersect nicely and create more true synchronicities. Thank you for your work, and I look forward to reading more of it!
Hola and hello, Sharine!
Great to meet you here, in substack world a rather remarkable world comprised of a wide range of diverse and amazing people. (And I love the title of your stack! Such a great play on just one word.)
I am happy and even delighted to be joined by a synchronicity fiend! And I look forward to how they will expand with us and the other 'us's that live here on the planet and are becoming increasingly concentrated here in substack world.
I read your travelogue post and... maybe you will find my travelogue interesting. It is capturing my journey with my partner into becoming covid refugees. I have yet to catch it up to the present moment. My last travelogue post approaches my and my partner's final weeks in Canada before choosing to become covid refugees. (I have 10 travelogue posts, so far: I have numbered them, so they are distinct from the 'regular' essays.)
So, in case you are interested - no pressure - here is the last one. It links to the first one.
"10. The Fear of Freedom: Hitting the Road Jack, Aparigraha Revisited and the Elephant in the Bedroom" https://gduperreault.substack.com/p/10-the-fear-of-freedom
Nice to meet you! Thank you for commenting and, again, Iook forward to our shared journey of synchronicity and even serendipity. All the best.
I went to Part 1 and started reading from the beginning! Great story-telling!
🙂🙏❤️🙏🙂
So glad you are enjoying it. It has been an amazing journey to Self discovery and the deep practice of yoga's 'aperigraha'.
Gracias.
Synchronicity...
"To know and see the molecules that she is made of and that she is a part of. And then to see them re-connect back into her life with the best outcome, to manifest what is moving her forward, and at the same time to not restore those things that no longer serve. An amazing aperigraha process, of letting go what no longer serves..."
I know that you read my comment with Michael S yesterday, so I won't explain the synchronicity here, but I made that comment before I read your beautiful essay.
Seeing the molecules that you are made of and reconnecting them in, leaving behind that which no longer serves, reminds me of the central channel breath work that I have been work to integrate into the studio. In The Energy Codes, by Sue Morter, she doesn't describe energy as necessarlily being stuck, although she acknowledges that "stuck" is often how others describe it.
She articulates it as areas that have been dis-integrated..or lack the circuitry to allow the energy to move optimally. Her central channel breathing practices pull the energy no longer serving into the central channel and allow it to either re-integrate or be moved through and grounded. The approach of seeing the molecules we are made of and re-connecting them sounds very similar and I love it.
What a beautiful insight to see Terry in the flawed, lazy logic and guidance of Krishnamurti. A cathartic integration of her presence in your life. 🙏🏼
I am wondering how your hip is doing?
Hola, Sarah.
This is so great. The synchronicity and more so your beautiful articulation and extension of this idea. Thank you for sharing this so beautifully with me.
My hip is doing quite a bit better, especially after the Krishnamurti Pt2 essay. OMG! That had me more triggered than the Tigger tiggered. A fascinating process of really deep shadow work coming out through this amazing thing called a body. And what an amazing perfectly timed process, arrived at without overt planning, an Terry arc. Life has a wicked sense of humour.
Were you familiar with Krishnamurti before reading this essay?
And soon to begin Terry, Pt 2. Challenging, be it will too. Good night,
I was not familiar with Krishnamurti before your essay. I enjoyed my introduction through your lens. Your perspective always resonates in a way that has volume for me. I think this is because we have a great deal of shared life, you and I. Although in different times and places, and along different paths, we traversed similar terrain. Sometimes I feel like our higher selves might be hiking together somewhere beautiful....there are a few others, particularly here in this unique Substack land, that I think might be on the journey too.
All that to say...I am really enjoying the hike ;)
I'll look forward to reading how your hip is unraveling in Part 2!
Sending strength and clarity for Terry's next chapter....
Hola, Sarah. 🙏❤️🧘🏿♀️🙌🧘🏿♀️❤️🙏
"Sometimes I feel like our higher selves might be hiking together somewhere beautiful....there are a few others, particularly here in this unique Substack land, that I think might be on the journey too."
Yes, yes and yes! When I read this my entire body shivered with recognition and the joy of this truth. My hairs stood up and hummed with the resonance and even joy. Nothing like an attempted genocide to give us the opportunity to experience the deepest joy. Life really does have a wicked sense of humour in its world of wonders.
From 'Born Under Punches (the Heat Goes On)'
All I want is to breathe (I'm too thin)
Won't you breathe with me?
Find a little space so we move in-between (In-between it)
And keep one step ahead of yourself
Some of Byrne's lyrics are rather astounding!
Here is a live version of that song, from 1980, that I think is remarkable. I have no idea what your taste in music is so... well, I'll share this link.
https://youtu.be/YO7N2tFb0X8?si=QEj-Noxxtx9aIx30
"Take a look at these hands
Take a look at these hands
The hand speaks
The hand of a government man
Well, I'm a tumbler
Born under punches
I'm so thin"
I am honoured and delighted to be walking here on Terra Firma with you even though we are in distant lands, and shoulder to shoulder in the energy sphere of who we are as higher energy.
And the part 2 of Krishnamurti is... well. It was a tough one. Preparation for Terry 2.
Good night.
🙏❤️🧘🏿♀️🙌🧘🏿♀️❤️🙏