Beautiful and heartfelt writing. Thank you so much for this ! It sounds like we had very similar families growing up and that we have both sought a path of healing to learn how to process the trauma.
I’m pretty sure my mother has some kind of a cluster b personality disorder, either narcissistic or borderline. Either way she loves to lie, hurt and manipulate and it’s really maddening and damaging to be around.
Something that has been pleasantly surprising to me over the past couple of years is doing a meditation that is recommended by the Thich Naht Hahn books where I imagine my parents as 5 years olds. They were once fragile and easily hurt and they passed their suffering down to me like their parents passed their suffering down to them.
That meditation has helped me not take the trauma ( especially from my physically abusive father) too personally and has gone a long way to helping me let go of the notion that any of that awfulness ever defined me.
The things that happened to us do not define us. We are part of a river of suffering that we can learn to bear witness to, so to transform the suffering into consciousness and compassion.
It’s really inspiring to listen to you transform your and your fathers suffering into love and compassion. Much peace and love to you on your journey and thank you for sharing your insights. 🪷
Beautiful and heartfelt writing. Thank you so much for this ! It sounds like we had very similar families growing up and that we have both sought a path of healing to learn how to process the trauma.
I’m pretty sure my mother has some kind of a cluster b personality disorder, either narcissistic or borderline. Either way she loves to lie, hurt and manipulate and it’s really maddening and damaging to be around.
Something that has been pleasantly surprising to me over the past couple of years is doing a meditation that is recommended by the Thich Naht Hahn books where I imagine my parents as 5 years olds. They were once fragile and easily hurt and they passed their suffering down to me like their parents passed their suffering down to them.
That meditation has helped me not take the trauma ( especially from my physically abusive father) too personally and has gone a long way to helping me let go of the notion that any of that awfulness ever defined me.
The things that happened to us do not define us. We are part of a river of suffering that we can learn to bear witness to, so to transform the suffering into consciousness and compassion.
It’s really inspiring to listen to you transform your and your fathers suffering into love and compassion. Much peace and love to you on your journey and thank you for sharing your insights. 🪷
I enjoyed reading that, thanks. I think it helps to write these things down, it's cathartic, it helps release the anger.