Hello, NOH. Great meeting you here. You're very welcome. I am so glad I've helped you in any way.
As I suspect you know, to become who we are is perhaps our life purpose. And for most of us this is a challenging process of discovering that at our core, our ground, we are Joy.
I havent reached the joy part yet 🤣 but I am centered in love right now. I'm still outside myself observing, watching my words reflect back at me, watching others interactions, seeking peace and love.
I've sacrificed parts of me. I didn't want to be her anymore. My pain at times is so great I needed to let it go before it killed me.
Each part of me I sacrificed brought me to tears. In those tears a person inside of me brought me the beautiful gift of peace like being in the clouds.
Each part of me I face takes me away from the person I was. I died to find peace. In peace and love I was reborn.
I found this today. This is what I went through and it reminded me of you.
One more reply. A small and yet rather remarkable synchronicity. In the video they show a painting by William Blake. I used that very same painting in my last substack post.
See "The Confession of a Blood Donor Abstainer: Transfusions, Transplants and Transhumans, How Are They Related?"
I have actively and consistently logged and tracked synchronicities now for about 30 years. Truly a connection to the Universe and a touchstone to the divine's sense of humour, compassion, and learning.
Stepping back I have been seeing patterns and some synchronicities. To me it helps clarify things and show me I'm on the right path.
I also love music and feel so blessed it is not one of the things I had to sacrifice. I was truly worried for awhile that I would then, right on cue, the person inside me opened me up, let me see. I listened to all my old favorite songs and heard them differently. In those songs I was crying out but I wasnt listening. Because I was gifted with the ability to see and I was so grateful for it, I was able to keep my music. I still treasure it. It's become part of my healing
I'm starting to look at it more subtly and exploring the issue of the A note set to 444 hz instead of 432hz. The latter promotes calm and relaxation. The former, which was set in the 1930s in Nazi Germany and agreed to by the world, is disharmonious and creates a kind of frenetic excitement in the body. Stimulating in a way that creates discord in our various biological systems.
I had an amazing synchronicity this weekend with one of the songs you recommended. I went to play it for our dance period, and the internet was wonking and it played a few bars of the song and stopped. And then the registrant walked up and showed me his phone with his music list. That song was on the top. Kerala.
You've given me another priceless gift. Songs being sung to someone I love, admire, need, desire, can now be songs I sing to myself, in acceptance, seeking to find myself whole.
Hmmmm. This song brought a smile to my face and a bit of laughter of personal recognition, even though I'd not heard it before. [Headshakel.] One of the greatest of all the psyops, one that isn't talked about at all that I've seen, is the codependency disempowering songs. (Well, Tommy Rosen in his addiction recovery group does talk about this, too. Great group! r20.com. This is the only other place I've seen it talked about, although I'm sure it has been talked about in 'deep' journals.)
This song is a 'classic' co-dependency disempowerment song. It is all about looking outside for validation, love, and life. Ahhh, I remember those sweet days of my teenage youth, listening for hours on end to endless 8track looping loopiness of Carol King. Wow, did I listen to that a lot. Here is a link to that old album. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RqQXvcr9Uag&list=PLG0W27j3Wle3UPTQfPJeys9K2h5q0gUJQ
Look at the titles, event most of them are about being disempowered to love, someone else, etc. Sigh and LoL! It took a lot of years to wash that samskara (habit or brain function scar) out of my head.
And, it turns out almost all popular songs, across genres, re-enforce powerless over our lives because of emotion and love, mostly, as well as the other usual suspects.
In the last few years, I've moved away from those kinds of songs, generally. Very hard to avoid, although not impossible. I remember earlier this year my partner Yoshiko asked me for a group that didn't have codependency disempowering song. I struggled to find one. The Who was what came to mind. And much of the Bare Naked Ladies too.
This is a multilevel topic for me. This and I am the queen of learned helplessness. I stopped caring about my helplessness because once my external life of productivity was ruined I stopped caring what others think of my lack of action. I feel like if I'm going to be discouraged of judged no matter what I do, I prefer to take care of what needs doing and do little else. I need to take care of something pressing and I cannot even get myself to leave the house right now. That bothers me a little only because there are consequences. Even the consequences arent enough to motivate me.
I also have issues with defining codependency. My son is an adult dependant on me. I do have my limits and set boundaries, have done my best to teach him patience despite his severe autism but mostly his needs come first. Codependent or not its love and he has needs which show his level of codependency and his disability like his autism make him want me to refresh his drink 20 times 30 minutes not because the drink is bad or empty. I try to see patterns for why he will endlessly make me get up at times but sometimes there are none. I love on him with praise or a gentle touch, maybe just sit with him and he wants me to leave. I try to anticipate anything he might want, lets go outside.
I love the Carol King song. Could some of it be reframed as love? I'm not sure I ever have or could have an earthshaking feeling for myself when I walk into a room. I'm sure I had that feeling once for my husband. To be honest I've only had once crush before, even then I knew carrying it through would not make me happy so it quickly fizzled out. I do have overwhelming feelings of love when I see my husband sometimes. He can be dirty from work looking his worst, isnt athletic or tall but I love him so much, appreciate him. My life is so much more beautiful with him in it and our days here are numbered too short to not appreciate them all as gifts, to me. I seek my husband out because I love him want to see him happy it makes me happy. The carol king song could represent that love to me, it did actually bring up some of those feelings hibernating inside of me that love can be powerful enough to make us leave our cocoon to seek the person who makes our heart sing. If the relationship itself is healthy, if nothing else, there doesnt seem to be harm in some of the songs? I may have to explore my belief more.
I do not like Goyte's song. If I hear it on a playlist popping up and run to change the song 🤣 I don't even want to sit with it. Maybe I will someday. The last version with all the people playing one guitar was sublime though. I didn't even listen to the words it was so beautiful ❤
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, wisdom and songs with me.
I want to thank you again for these links. I think it can be very valuable when others reflect back what they see in us. The songs made me uncomfortable. They made me think a lot in a good way. First just seeing myself through your eyes. Im not sure I can word this correctly...
I know Im strange to others but I wish I werent. When I'm alone I feel normal. I sit inside myself its around others I feel different. I think my husband may see me a bit different but still in the range of normal because I keep parts of me to myself. Maybe what I'm saying is I'm rejecting myself when I call myself names like weird or strange and it was hearing it reflected back from you it hit me. Maybe I am weird but either I need to start thinking of weird as good or reframe who I am without the insult attached *or I need to change?* because I'm hurting me. I think it might be a part of me being more bulletproof. I'm struggling with this. Whatever comes of it I really needed your message to me. Thank you ❤🙏🙏🙏
Edit: also I dont think you were insulting me at all. You were seeing parts of me I'm uncomfortable with having reflected back at me and I needed it even if it hurt maybe especially because it hurt. It's an impetus to do something about it ... even if all I do is just embrace it? Is that me being a coward lol? I dont know yet.
Thank you, NOH, for sharing so honestly. And keeping me curious, inspired and energised with your honesty.
You are a unique expression of God (or whatever the energy of life is).
It *may* be of some value to ask yourself why do you feel the need to debase your uniqueness to 'normalise' yourself? It is likely more valuable to ungrip from that question and embrace the beauty of your uniqueness. Every flower may look the same to our poorly discerning eye, and yet each is unique. It is unlikely they are pining to be 'normal' when they are simply expressing the truth of their flowered expression. That is our opportunity and joy. Ungrip from the mind and emotions that have taken that joy from you and see them as unique expressions of life, too, like clouds or flowers. They are not you. You have the ability to see them, and the power to choose when to act or not, further proof that they are not you. You are their god, actually. Amazing to think about that.
And as I'm writing this, Laura Marling's song 'Strange' came up again. Fascinating how often songs have been synchronicity-rooted my entire life.
And, now to really stop reading my emails! I confess to finding your bold willingness to look at your self and share that with me inspiring and uplifting and certainly energising. Honesty and truth is so powerful, very much true inspiration and invigoration.
This is so Beautiful and kind of you to say. Thank you ❤ It adds a new layer of consideration for me. That I not see everything inside of me as requiring purging. I have to consider it all carefully.
I'm so happy my messages to you are well received, that I dont deplete or drain you at all with my issues.
I hope you sleep well 🙏💞
Many blessings and beautiful dreams with happy endings 😁
My email notice of this comment indicates that you deleted the story of your friend and her and her in utero child's death by drunk driver. My blessings to you and to them. And it is wonderful that you were able to connect with her so joyfully and completely. We all of us are connected and within that there are the special connections.
Hmmmm. I'm wrestling with sharing this very strange synchronicity with you. Now that you shared this sad story, it is actually strong in me to share it. It is complicated... my fingers seem to want me to share it. It is likely going to sound harsh. Well, okay, fingers, you want me to go so... My partner who moved back to Japan in March told me yesterday that she read about a mother whose young child died. The mother was filled with grief, of course, and went to Gautama Buddha and asked/demanded that he bring her child back to life. He replied that he would do that if she could find any family who hasn't had someone die.
A few hours later, my partner's neighbour knocked on her door. The neighbour was filled with grief because her husband had died, in his 50s, from cancer. A couple days before that my friend told me that his partner, and my friend, died in her 50s. She was an active marathon runner and a black belt in karate.
Why do I write this? Life is impermanent and death is a part of it, in all permutations. It is our place to grieve fiercely, and that is appropriate. And then it is appropriate to return to life. We have a tendency to grip our grief as if it is morally proper and responsible and refuse to let it go. That becomes another story that ... hurts us. The opposite is true. Grief is to be experienced deeply, and then released and, depending on the circumstances, that letting go of the grip of grief allows us to take appropriate to the circumstances actions. Our responsibility and our power is to be alive as long as we are alive. Internally dying as moral virtue is misguided and inappropriate and stops us from easing the suffering of the others around us who are also suffering their griefs and deaths.
Now, that synchronicity was just expanded by the next random song that came up for me in a spotify playlist I'm listening to. (If curious, the playlist began with https://open.spotify.com/album/63RbFKUdpvWwaRcDGU2Piv)
Wow! You have expressed yourself and your Self beautifully here. Wonderful.
And the "Rapid Personality Change and the Psychological Rebirth" video is excellent. It connects directly with Jungian psychology and Gautama Buddha's psychology, too. In my and my partner's experience change required for us daily dedicated practice. Initially this was with the help of someone we trusted to provide us with a structure that allowed a building process to occur. What is happening now is we no longer need that externally crafted structure to help support us because our small daily steady practices have built that strength. With that now comes the quantum leap (so-called 'enlightenment' experiences) changes. Until we had a structure in place, the quantum leaps would not have been well received and could even have been hurtful and backwards moving.
Our journey is our own! And we are sharing it with the people and energy around us who can help us find our own way.
And as I was reading your reply, my favourites music list turned to the following piece of music that fit our conversation so perfectly, I have shared it.
Great journey with you! And remember to be kind to yourself and your Self as much a possible. And if you are okay with it, I will include you in my prayers to assist you in the learning process of being kind. Namaste.
Thank you Guy. I would love to be part of your prayers. ❤ and thank you for the beautiful song link.
I dont know if I should write this. There is that word... should. Please forgive me if anything below this is disturbing in any way.
Do you ever feel like peace and love are only attained by letting it all go? We are a part of everything and this isnt about us, its about them?
This might sound confusing maybe I can clarify
I think looking into my past helped me to forgive myself and move on. Before I let parts of me go I thanked them. I believe, as disordered as they were, they got me through times as a child when I had no one to protect me. I stopped judging me.
Inside of me I'm INFP meyer Briggs but outside I've been projecting the opposite at times, only trusting a few people the rest are potential threats needing to be neutralized or protected against.
I'm standing outside of myself now having difficulty not forgiving and loving all. I am no one to judge anyone else. I'm not them and now I'm not sure where I fit in. I see people bashing this person or that one because they are a threat to our future. I undersrand them deeply, I am one of them. I agree with them... and yet we are all part of this imperfect mess. It is our own creation, one we may never overcome. If it werent Malone it would be someone else. Even in our own small communities people have power to hurt others. There are so many fights where do we begin and will it ever end when it is the very fabric of who we are which is flawed, why we split into factions that become what appear to be threats? At some tipping point of power and influence our friends may become those whom we fight.
Maybe part of the sacrifice towards peace is sacrificing the fight. Jung talked about being rid of the hero quest. Are we on a hero quest?
I'm not judging it is in my lack of judgment I'm questioning parts of life, hopefully this makes sense.
This makes perfect sense. You have with your struggle to understand, looking with questions and confusion around yourself, at this great mystery of solidity and impermanence.
Yes, our 'parents' as struggling people. How do we move them from being creator/destroyers to people? Forgiveness is a key step, so long as it isn't a forced 'should' or 'have to'. When it comes freely and truly then we are almost free. The next step is to take full responsibility for our place in the relationship and ask them to forgive us for the way we have hurt them.
I found that prayer in a sung mantra form this morning! I'll share at the end, along with 'O Superman'.
The hero quest is preliminary path on our journey. The next stage is to recognise there are no heroes and no villains: there is our shadow and its projection. And that is true maturity, the individuated person who can be absolutely at ease with all circumstances and with all people. Be patient and kind. You are clearly moving there. It is *your* path, and yet it is also *our* path. You are not alone.
Your 'fight' is to give up the stories that keep you from your freedom. Whenever you hear a voice or idea or body compulsion keeping you hurt or small or valueless, see it. See and say 'I don't need you anymore. You may go back to sleep.' Do not fight or yell or scream. Be kind and simply say "I see you." And the energy of hurt will diminish.
You wrote 'sacrificing' the fight. In a sense, yes. With more gentleness that becomes the joyful 'surrender' the fight, as in wanting to give it up like an unwanted plaything that no longer serves.
This is one part of me I have yet to part with, forgiving those who did this to my son and so many others. The pain is like a tattoo on my heart.
Outside of myself I can see potential for me to forgive but when I step towards it my mama bear pulls me away and the valkyrie inside of me screams out. They are still there Guy. I place them behind me now instead of in front of me but I may never be fully rid of them, a part of me feels I still need them. My fight isnt over, even if the fight is working agaisnt me. nor can I give up my desire to sacrifice my life if my son dies. His life and mine are intertwined. There is no peace without him 😪
One kind of humorous thing, I feel like I'm fighting and bartering with myself over these last few things I refuse to let go of... then I am standing back watching me fighting with myself 🤣 ladies, ladies, please stop bickering. Let's leave it over there in the corner for now. If only I could research thymectomy without the pain and anger flairing up inside me.
I'm sorry for going on and on. I dont mean to take up so much of your time. Thank you for being here and helping me.
Am a Christian believer. I listen to most of the YouTube Christian prophets that prophecy that GOD is bringing Trump to come back in office as soon as possible not in 2024. It warn there will be fire and riot but GOD’s people will prevail.
Hey check this website www.realrawnews.com . I read many articles on this website. Bill Gates dead. Got punished. List of people got punished to death George Bush, Dick Cheney, Nancy Pelosi and more. The people that you see on tv are either clone or actors.
Part of the psyop counter measure to sow confusion, most likely. Some of it *may* be true, some not, and no real way to tell which is which. So, at best this is a source of babel.
I think this is the real deal. What happened on according to their report seem to match what happened between the line mainstream media. For example their report mentions CDC Welensky was arrested and then the mainstream media hours or day later said Wenensky resigned. Their report now mentions Welensky is hang.
Hola, NOB.
You are finding your way into the main dance floor of Life!
Fantastic, now willing to stop being a wall flower or paper. ;-)
Write as freely as your fingers will allow and know you are engaging and stimulating me at the same time
Today is a bit busy so I will be terse as the less than terse Guy can be.
I gave my registrant a free marma as part of the retreat. It was great for him, another new experience to release stuck shit in the mind and body.
Great to see you dancing! Namaste.
💞🙏 Thank you for sharing this Guy and thank you for being you, for helping me.
Blessings, Love and Peace to You always
Hello, NOH. Great meeting you here. You're very welcome. I am so glad I've helped you in any way.
As I suspect you know, to become who we are is perhaps our life purpose. And for most of us this is a challenging process of discovering that at our core, our ground, we are Joy.
Thank you for reading. Namaste.
🙏
I havent reached the joy part yet 🤣 but I am centered in love right now. I'm still outside myself observing, watching my words reflect back at me, watching others interactions, seeking peace and love.
I've sacrificed parts of me. I didn't want to be her anymore. My pain at times is so great I needed to let it go before it killed me.
Each part of me I sacrificed brought me to tears. In those tears a person inside of me brought me the beautiful gift of peace like being in the clouds.
Each part of me I face takes me away from the person I was. I died to find peace. In peace and love I was reborn.
I found this today. This is what I went through and it reminded me of you.
https://youtu.be/SPuRxF6P5Hk
Thank you
One more reply. A small and yet rather remarkable synchronicity. In the video they show a painting by William Blake. I used that very same painting in my last substack post.
See "The Confession of a Blood Donor Abstainer: Transfusions, Transplants and Transhumans, How Are They Related?"
https://gduperreault.substack.com/p/the-confession-of-a-blood-donor-abstainer
I have actively and consistently logged and tracked synchronicities now for about 30 years. Truly a connection to the Universe and a touchstone to the divine's sense of humour, compassion, and learning.
🙏
Incredible. ❤
Stepping back I have been seeing patterns and some synchronicities. To me it helps clarify things and show me I'm on the right path.
I also love music and feel so blessed it is not one of the things I had to sacrifice. I was truly worried for awhile that I would then, right on cue, the person inside me opened me up, let me see. I listened to all my old favorite songs and heard them differently. In those songs I was crying out but I wasnt listening. Because I was gifted with the ability to see and I was so grateful for it, I was able to keep my music. I still treasure it. It's become part of my healing
Music is life. No question.
I'm starting to look at it more subtly and exploring the issue of the A note set to 444 hz instead of 432hz. The latter promotes calm and relaxation. The former, which was set in the 1930s in Nazi Germany and agreed to by the world, is disharmonious and creates a kind of frenetic excitement in the body. Stimulating in a way that creates discord in our various biological systems.
432 DNA Tuning and the Nazi-ization of Music
by Brendan D. Murphy (circa 2015)
https://inugo.substack.com/p/432-dna-tuning-and-the-nazi-ization
INUGO MONTOYA. https://substack.com/profile/45221729-inugo-montoya
I had an amazing synchronicity this weekend with one of the songs you recommended. I went to play it for our dance period, and the internet was wonking and it played a few bars of the song and stopped. And then the registrant walked up and showed me his phone with his music list. That song was on the top. Kerala.
https://youtu.be/IoN_ZaoFSW8
And did I mention Eileen McKusick? She deals with sound as healing energy in an amazing way.
Alec Zeck the Way Forward
Ep 05: The Human Biofield with Eileen McKusick
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/ep-05-the-human-biofield-with-eileen-mckusick/id1544492743?i=1000590729646
❤️ 😊 🙏❤️
Maybe I shared that already? [Headshake.] Ah well. It might be worth repeating. And now, omg Laura Mvula!
https://youtu.be/hYjHixQ9Ns4
Excellent links thank you! I subbed Brendan, will read into this more. I havent heard of Eileen McKusick. Thank you again for all of your links.
I'm giggling that you brought a part of me with you.. and it synchronized with the people there. That's a really nice feeling. Thank you.
I thought about you and your group all weekend, holding positive energy and thoughts for you. 🥰🙏
More music:
Laura Marling, Strange
https://youtu.be/u8us2ZE__yk
And Strange Girl! 😉
https://youtu.be/yOThtB3Z1uI
You've given me another priceless gift. Songs being sung to someone I love, admire, need, desire, can now be songs I sing to myself, in acceptance, seeking to find myself whole.
https://youtu.be/14zB3tXCENg
Rynn islands
The rain always ends up back in the river again
Oh, innocence is sometimes thrown into the lion's den
But I've made it this far as I lay in your arms
Lost as an island, a casualty of silence
It's killing me
And I don't mean to be a bother
But I was pondering if you'd cross an ocean for me
'Cause I just really need to know if this is love
Or are we simply sharing air to breathe
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
I fall asleep to lullabies built of thunder
Peace settles in, but then my mind plays the hunter
Thoughts pile up till their mountain tops
Pulling me along till I'm a little lost
It's killing me
And I don't mean to be a bother
But I was pondering if you'd cross an ocean for me
'Cause I just really need to know if this is love
Or are we simply sharing air to breathe
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
Here I stand in front of you
It's little overdue
Asking for a simple truth
Here I stand in front of you
It's little overdue
Asking for a simple truth
And I don't mean to be a bother
But I was pondering if you'd cross an ocean for me
'Cause I just really need to know if this is love
Or are we simply sharing air to breathe
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
When the waves get rough will you be here when I wake up
Hola, NOH.
Hmmmm. This song brought a smile to my face and a bit of laughter of personal recognition, even though I'd not heard it before. [Headshakel.] One of the greatest of all the psyops, one that isn't talked about at all that I've seen, is the codependency disempowering songs. (Well, Tommy Rosen in his addiction recovery group does talk about this, too. Great group! r20.com. This is the only other place I've seen it talked about, although I'm sure it has been talked about in 'deep' journals.)
This song is a 'classic' co-dependency disempowerment song. It is all about looking outside for validation, love, and life. Ahhh, I remember those sweet days of my teenage youth, listening for hours on end to endless 8track looping loopiness of Carol King. Wow, did I listen to that a lot. Here is a link to that old album. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RqQXvcr9Uag&list=PLG0W27j3Wle3UPTQfPJeys9K2h5q0gUJQ
Look at the titles, event most of them are about being disempowered to love, someone else, etc. Sigh and LoL! It took a lot of years to wash that samskara (habit or brain function scar) out of my head.
And, it turns out almost all popular songs, across genres, re-enforce powerless over our lives because of emotion and love, mostly, as well as the other usual suspects.
In the last few years, I've moved away from those kinds of songs, generally. Very hard to avoid, although not impossible. I remember earlier this year my partner Yoshiko asked me for a group that didn't have codependency disempowering song. I struggled to find one. The Who was what came to mind. And much of the Bare Naked Ladies too.
I love this song: https://youtu.be/RPRDR19XNCQ
And from the BNL, their who album 'Maybe You Should Drive'
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LRiGkiluXA&list=OLAK5uy_n8XzdeP0nMnlAVauoihO1nJCHX85IUsE4
Your supplied song reminds me of Gotye's brilliantly done Somebody I Used to Know
https://youtu.be/8UVNT4wvIGY
And this brilliant cover of it by Walk off the Earth:
https://youtu.be/P9mybTArlsk
It is really about somebody exiting the disorientation of leaving a 'bad', ie co-dependent, relationship.
🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏
Thank you for sharing all of this Guy. 🙏
This is a multilevel topic for me. This and I am the queen of learned helplessness. I stopped caring about my helplessness because once my external life of productivity was ruined I stopped caring what others think of my lack of action. I feel like if I'm going to be discouraged of judged no matter what I do, I prefer to take care of what needs doing and do little else. I need to take care of something pressing and I cannot even get myself to leave the house right now. That bothers me a little only because there are consequences. Even the consequences arent enough to motivate me.
I also have issues with defining codependency. My son is an adult dependant on me. I do have my limits and set boundaries, have done my best to teach him patience despite his severe autism but mostly his needs come first. Codependent or not its love and he has needs which show his level of codependency and his disability like his autism make him want me to refresh his drink 20 times 30 minutes not because the drink is bad or empty. I try to see patterns for why he will endlessly make me get up at times but sometimes there are none. I love on him with praise or a gentle touch, maybe just sit with him and he wants me to leave. I try to anticipate anything he might want, lets go outside.
I love the Carol King song. Could some of it be reframed as love? I'm not sure I ever have or could have an earthshaking feeling for myself when I walk into a room. I'm sure I had that feeling once for my husband. To be honest I've only had once crush before, even then I knew carrying it through would not make me happy so it quickly fizzled out. I do have overwhelming feelings of love when I see my husband sometimes. He can be dirty from work looking his worst, isnt athletic or tall but I love him so much, appreciate him. My life is so much more beautiful with him in it and our days here are numbered too short to not appreciate them all as gifts, to me. I seek my husband out because I love him want to see him happy it makes me happy. The carol king song could represent that love to me, it did actually bring up some of those feelings hibernating inside of me that love can be powerful enough to make us leave our cocoon to seek the person who makes our heart sing. If the relationship itself is healthy, if nothing else, there doesnt seem to be harm in some of the songs? I may have to explore my belief more.
I do not like Goyte's song. If I hear it on a playlist popping up and run to change the song 🤣 I don't even want to sit with it. Maybe I will someday. The last version with all the people playing one guitar was sublime though. I didn't even listen to the words it was so beautiful ❤
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, wisdom and songs with me.
🙏💞💞💞
I want to thank you again for these links. I think it can be very valuable when others reflect back what they see in us. The songs made me uncomfortable. They made me think a lot in a good way. First just seeing myself through your eyes. Im not sure I can word this correctly...
I know Im strange to others but I wish I werent. When I'm alone I feel normal. I sit inside myself its around others I feel different. I think my husband may see me a bit different but still in the range of normal because I keep parts of me to myself. Maybe what I'm saying is I'm rejecting myself when I call myself names like weird or strange and it was hearing it reflected back from you it hit me. Maybe I am weird but either I need to start thinking of weird as good or reframe who I am without the insult attached *or I need to change?* because I'm hurting me. I think it might be a part of me being more bulletproof. I'm struggling with this. Whatever comes of it I really needed your message to me. Thank you ❤🙏🙏🙏
Edit: also I dont think you were insulting me at all. You were seeing parts of me I'm uncomfortable with having reflected back at me and I needed it even if it hurt maybe especially because it hurt. It's an impetus to do something about it ... even if all I do is just embrace it? Is that me being a coward lol? I dont know yet.
Thank you, NOH, for sharing so honestly. And keeping me curious, inspired and energised with your honesty.
You are a unique expression of God (or whatever the energy of life is).
It *may* be of some value to ask yourself why do you feel the need to debase your uniqueness to 'normalise' yourself? It is likely more valuable to ungrip from that question and embrace the beauty of your uniqueness. Every flower may look the same to our poorly discerning eye, and yet each is unique. It is unlikely they are pining to be 'normal' when they are simply expressing the truth of their flowered expression. That is our opportunity and joy. Ungrip from the mind and emotions that have taken that joy from you and see them as unique expressions of life, too, like clouds or flowers. They are not you. You have the ability to see them, and the power to choose when to act or not, further proof that they are not you. You are their god, actually. Amazing to think about that.
And as I'm writing this, Laura Marling's song 'Strange' came up again. Fascinating how often songs have been synchronicity-rooted my entire life.
And, now to really stop reading my emails! I confess to finding your bold willingness to look at your self and share that with me inspiring and uplifting and certainly energising. Honesty and truth is so powerful, very much true inspiration and invigoration.
Thank you. good night.
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This is so Beautiful and kind of you to say. Thank you ❤ It adds a new layer of consideration for me. That I not see everything inside of me as requiring purging. I have to consider it all carefully.
I'm so happy my messages to you are well received, that I dont deplete or drain you at all with my issues.
I hope you sleep well 🙏💞
Many blessings and beautiful dreams with happy endings 😁
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Really interesting lyrics. I like them. Thank you for sharing. 🙏
My email notice of this comment indicates that you deleted the story of your friend and her and her in utero child's death by drunk driver. My blessings to you and to them. And it is wonderful that you were able to connect with her so joyfully and completely. We all of us are connected and within that there are the special connections.
Hmmmm. I'm wrestling with sharing this very strange synchronicity with you. Now that you shared this sad story, it is actually strong in me to share it. It is complicated... my fingers seem to want me to share it. It is likely going to sound harsh. Well, okay, fingers, you want me to go so... My partner who moved back to Japan in March told me yesterday that she read about a mother whose young child died. The mother was filled with grief, of course, and went to Gautama Buddha and asked/demanded that he bring her child back to life. He replied that he would do that if she could find any family who hasn't had someone die.
A few hours later, my partner's neighbour knocked on her door. The neighbour was filled with grief because her husband had died, in his 50s, from cancer. A couple days before that my friend told me that his partner, and my friend, died in her 50s. She was an active marathon runner and a black belt in karate.
Why do I write this? Life is impermanent and death is a part of it, in all permutations. It is our place to grieve fiercely, and that is appropriate. And then it is appropriate to return to life. We have a tendency to grip our grief as if it is morally proper and responsible and refuse to let it go. That becomes another story that ... hurts us. The opposite is true. Grief is to be experienced deeply, and then released and, depending on the circumstances, that letting go of the grip of grief allows us to take appropriate to the circumstances actions. Our responsibility and our power is to be alive as long as we are alive. Internally dying as moral virtue is misguided and inappropriate and stops us from easing the suffering of the others around us who are also suffering their griefs and deaths.
Now, that synchronicity was just expanded by the next random song that came up for me in a spotify playlist I'm listening to. (If curious, the playlist began with https://open.spotify.com/album/63RbFKUdpvWwaRcDGU2Piv)
Anyway here is a new to me song.
My Brightest Diamond - The Robin's Jar
https://youtu.be/hL3xTt-cvSU
Now it is really time to go to bed. All the best with peace, respect, love and gratitude.
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Lyrics below.
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/mybrightestdiamond/therobinsjar.html
"The Robin's Jar"
Once we found a robin
In our backyard
It was already dead
But we were so sure
That things weren't gone too far
So we prayed to God above
That He'd bring it back to us
And we put it in a jar
And waited
and waited
But mama made us bury it
Mama made us bury it
In the backyard
I wished to be just like my best friend
She was the brightest star in the room
Yeah but we didn't know what we had
With the world pressing in
On her backyard
She fell in backwards
She fell in backwards
With the world pressing in
On her backyard
She fell in backwards
We prayed to God above
That He'd bring her back to us
So we put her in a box
We put her in a box
And waited
For something to happen
But nothing happened
Mama made me bury her
Mama made me bury her
Mama made me bury her
in the backyard
Thank you for sharing this story and song with me.
Thank you for your gifts, your knowledge, for helping me and others.
You are an amazing beautiful light Guy
Peace, joy and love to you always 🙏❤♾
Wow! You have expressed yourself and your Self beautifully here. Wonderful.
And the "Rapid Personality Change and the Psychological Rebirth" video is excellent. It connects directly with Jungian psychology and Gautama Buddha's psychology, too. In my and my partner's experience change required for us daily dedicated practice. Initially this was with the help of someone we trusted to provide us with a structure that allowed a building process to occur. What is happening now is we no longer need that externally crafted structure to help support us because our small daily steady practices have built that strength. With that now comes the quantum leap (so-called 'enlightenment' experiences) changes. Until we had a structure in place, the quantum leaps would not have been well received and could even have been hurtful and backwards moving.
Our journey is our own! And we are sharing it with the people and energy around us who can help us find our own way.
And as I was reading your reply, my favourites music list turned to the following piece of music that fit our conversation so perfectly, I have shared it.
https://youtu.be/hV2-zFh3tAU
Great journey with you! And remember to be kind to yourself and your Self as much a possible. And if you are okay with it, I will include you in my prayers to assist you in the learning process of being kind. Namaste.
Thank you Guy. I would love to be part of your prayers. ❤ and thank you for the beautiful song link.
I dont know if I should write this. There is that word... should. Please forgive me if anything below this is disturbing in any way.
Do you ever feel like peace and love are only attained by letting it all go? We are a part of everything and this isnt about us, its about them?
This might sound confusing maybe I can clarify
I think looking into my past helped me to forgive myself and move on. Before I let parts of me go I thanked them. I believe, as disordered as they were, they got me through times as a child when I had no one to protect me. I stopped judging me.
Inside of me I'm INFP meyer Briggs but outside I've been projecting the opposite at times, only trusting a few people the rest are potential threats needing to be neutralized or protected against.
I'm standing outside of myself now having difficulty not forgiving and loving all. I am no one to judge anyone else. I'm not them and now I'm not sure where I fit in. I see people bashing this person or that one because they are a threat to our future. I undersrand them deeply, I am one of them. I agree with them... and yet we are all part of this imperfect mess. It is our own creation, one we may never overcome. If it werent Malone it would be someone else. Even in our own small communities people have power to hurt others. There are so many fights where do we begin and will it ever end when it is the very fabric of who we are which is flawed, why we split into factions that become what appear to be threats? At some tipping point of power and influence our friends may become those whom we fight.
Maybe part of the sacrifice towards peace is sacrificing the fight. Jung talked about being rid of the hero quest. Are we on a hero quest?
I'm not judging it is in my lack of judgment I'm questioning parts of life, hopefully this makes sense.
Thank you so much for your kindness to me Guy.
This makes perfect sense. You have with your struggle to understand, looking with questions and confusion around yourself, at this great mystery of solidity and impermanence.
Yes, our 'parents' as struggling people. How do we move them from being creator/destroyers to people? Forgiveness is a key step, so long as it isn't a forced 'should' or 'have to'. When it comes freely and truly then we are almost free. The next step is to take full responsibility for our place in the relationship and ask them to forgive us for the way we have hurt them.
I found that prayer in a sung mantra form this morning! I'll share at the end, along with 'O Superman'.
The hero quest is preliminary path on our journey. The next stage is to recognise there are no heroes and no villains: there is our shadow and its projection. And that is true maturity, the individuated person who can be absolutely at ease with all circumstances and with all people. Be patient and kind. You are clearly moving there. It is *your* path, and yet it is also *our* path. You are not alone.
Your 'fight' is to give up the stories that keep you from your freedom. Whenever you hear a voice or idea or body compulsion keeping you hurt or small or valueless, see it. See and say 'I don't need you anymore. You may go back to sleep.' Do not fight or yell or scream. Be kind and simply say "I see you." And the energy of hurt will diminish.
You wrote 'sacrificing' the fight. In a sense, yes. With more gentleness that becomes the joyful 'surrender' the fight, as in wanting to give it up like an unwanted plaything that no longer serves.
Two songs, now:
O Superman:
https://youtu.be/Vkfpi2H8tOE
Ho'oponopono responsibillty mantra.
https://youtu.be/NhzYbPF8y2g
All the best, with peace, respect, love and gratitude.
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PS: I went to your page, and realise now that we have previously talked. Nice to meet you here.
Your substack is excellent. Thank you for your courage to put that information up here for the world to discover. Namaste.
Ps. Regarding my substack, thank you.
This is one part of me I have yet to part with, forgiving those who did this to my son and so many others. The pain is like a tattoo on my heart.
Outside of myself I can see potential for me to forgive but when I step towards it my mama bear pulls me away and the valkyrie inside of me screams out. They are still there Guy. I place them behind me now instead of in front of me but I may never be fully rid of them, a part of me feels I still need them. My fight isnt over, even if the fight is working agaisnt me. nor can I give up my desire to sacrifice my life if my son dies. His life and mine are intertwined. There is no peace without him 😪
One kind of humorous thing, I feel like I'm fighting and bartering with myself over these last few things I refuse to let go of... then I am standing back watching me fighting with myself 🤣 ladies, ladies, please stop bickering. Let's leave it over there in the corner for now. If only I could research thymectomy without the pain and anger flairing up inside me.
I'm sorry for going on and on. I dont mean to take up so much of your time. Thank you for being here and helping me.
Peace and love to you always
Beautiful message and songs. Thank you so much for blessing me with your insights and compassion. 💐🙏❤
Namaste
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Part of the psyop counter measure to sow confusion, most likely. Some of it *may* be true, some not, and no real way to tell which is which. So, at best this is a source of babel.
I think this is the real deal. What happened on according to their report seem to match what happened between the line mainstream media. For example their report mentions CDC Welensky was arrested and then the mainstream media hours or day later said Wenensky resigned. Their report now mentions Welensky is hang.