Hi Guy, I bought you a cup of coffee. I was in a bit of a maze of the different related substack essays and scanned rather than read some of them but got the gist of what's what. I really appreciate you pointing out the relationship between moving on from the covid story and moving on from those other tragic treacheries. In Australia at the moment, the newly-formed AMPS (Australian Medical Practitioners Society) is hosting a tour conjointly with the New Zealand Doctors Speaking Out for Science. The lead speakers are UK oncologist Professor Angus Dalgleish and Dr Paul Marik from the US. New Zealand and Australian doctors are included as is the lawyer heading the class action for vaccine injured in Australia (over 1000 people signed up so far) and some other beloved hosts. I went to the event here in Brisbane (SE QLD) on Monday night. Good luck with your refugee status.
welcome to my writing and i appreciate the coffee! (the coffee in oaxaca is certainly the best i've tasted.)
it is amazing, once we begin to see more clearly what has been done to us, just how 'boringly' repetitive have been the practices of the oligarchs, or whatever we want to call them. totally 'mbas', not a creative thought at all. at the same time, it has worked for a long time, so why would they change? isn't it amazing just how horrific an event it took to wake us up? [headshake.]
although, once seen, omg, their pattern is now pretty much throughout their written history! we are living the great apocalypse for sure.
all the best with the class actions. as you may know, these kinds of lawsuits are being dismissed in the usa because of the managing of the licensing and roll out was the department of defence and is thus not able to be sued. at this time. so, even while the ptb are boringly repetitive, they are also damn clever and thorough. lots of practice of course.
i appreciate your time to read my words and, again, for the coffee. and for your best wishes for my status. someone from canada actually was granted refugee status! amazing, so i've got my fingers crossed.
note: if you prefer audio, i've begun recording my reading the most recent essays. and will likely go back to the older ones as time and inclination permit.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
i receive your love with my even more open heart! y, igualemente, as is said in spanish. my love and respect back to you!
and it has shocked me and others too. my sister also explicitly expressed that she was happy it wasn't my time too!
as i explored this, in this writing and the earlier one, it seems going into near death or close to it is likely the event with enough energy/strength to counter the infancy-trauma of that near death event by my mother. historically i've questioned the early psychological ideas around 'libido' as a psychologically closed energy system posited, especially by freud the 'newtonian' scientist. and now? and after reading 'the inner world of trauma: archetypal defences of the personal spirit' by donald kalsched, i'm not so sure. although jung might have been closer to a deeper understanding of 'libido' when he pointed out that the cure for a neurosis (expression of trauma) requires a 'neurosis' ('traumatic' event) of greater strength. hence the deep bottoms of addicts before the reality of the destructive nature of their addiction is faced. and frequently, that is only the door to the deeper shadow trauma that hasn't yet been faced.
it hints at how difficult it is for anyone to wake up! we are a global community of people, especially the gringos, who have been very systematically and in effective ways traumatised basically since birth — and certainly subsequent to entering the public school domain. uur governmental food and health guidances, 'vaccines', medicines, propaganda, and their supported mostly anti-religious, pseudo 'spiritual' rhetoric through the popular -isms and the promoted literatures and entertainments, are designed to create schismogenisis and 'body' dysphoria. once we are truly separated from the body and live in the mind, we are pretty easy to manipulate. see the lefties lost in a no-land mindscape of crazy ideas.
so, as i realised many years ago, albeit at a more philosophical or perhaps psychological level, when people are given the choice of life or death, i used to kind of condescendingly say 'the vast majority will choose [physical] death.' i've inserted the 'physical' because that is in fact the more gentle death because change of the belief that is required to make a 'real' change is vastly more difficult. it is to face psychological annihilation.
my experience is, imo, an example of the degree to which that psychological death-of-truth can be challenging.
again, sarah, 🙏❤️🧘♂️❤️🙏. much love.
and we don't know, really, when death will knock, and magically the reaper thwarted with cyborgian tech! life really does have a wicked sense of humour!
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
Guy, you write so beautifully and this has brought me so much joy. We really do share our interbeing with all and so we are really just giving and receiving from ourselves ❤️. I am so glad you are still with us but I am sorry to hear that the hospital has cleared you out. I hope you get a lot of energy flowing your way. I will help out a little as soon as I can. You are someone I would love to meet, one of a handful of Substackers that has helped me keep my sanity and made life more beautiful during this time of rapid change.
i am doing my snoopy dance that my words have brought to you joy and perhaps even a form of a sanity life preserver in this time of extraordinary tumult and flux, ie, chaos. everywhere we look, the wise people have said much the same things: keep calm, question what is true because seeing truth is hard, trust yourself, and we are a part of the process of life. i really think that gautama put that last bit maybe the best of anyone. william blake might have come close and perhaps walt whitman too, in their ways. however i think that both of them weren't able to ground it properly, despite how both of them extolled the body as central. hmmmm. something to explore, maybe.
thank you for your energy wishes and intention. in pretty short order i will properly set up my 8 week on-line course and that might be an easy way for us to meet, if that might interest you.
"... and made life more beautiful during this time of rapid change." 🙏❤️🧘♂️❤️🙏
this is truly a beautiful statement in this time of extraordinary apocalypse. if you find yourself itching to visit south, oaxaca is a beautiful place with some kind of 'spiritual' energy. i would love to meet you as well.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
I'm so sorry you're going through this, Guy. Your fellow ex-pat halfway around the world, Steve Martin, seems in a similar place. What I wrote in response to his comments was that I hoped he would someday be looking back saying, "Thank goodness that happened because, if not for that, this never would." Wishing that for you too.
i assure you that feeling sorry for me, while done with great intention and that i've received with an open heart, is absolutely not necessary. this is part of my yogic process of clearing the samskaras — the really really deep ones. as i wrote in the essay, this has been a truly beautiful spiritual awareness and clearing process. and, at the same time, it also confirms why most people when faced with this challenge back away from it. the yogi-buddhist scholar michael stone has a great way of putting it, paraphrased: after 6 or so years of dedicated true yoga practice, meaning one that includes the yamas and the niyamas, which are the principles of integration by action in the world beyond postures and sitting, the 'true' yogic practice will ask us to renunciate a lot via aparigraha and more broadly, ishvara-pranidhana the embracing of interdependence and the life-energy of the universe. That letting go may include the huge constructed identities we have such as home, marriage, job, country and even yoga itself. And often the ego-mind complex steps in to save us with a mara/devil's bargain because it is afraid and knows how to manipulate the fear of the depths being asked by aparigraha / ishvara-pranidhana. so mara/devil distracts us into a 'super important' and delectably deeper side practice or study or new learning which is the spiritual by-pass. once that is taken the 'yogi' becomes a humourless and often moral experts of some niche or arcane yogic aspect. fascinating stuff, much of which i saw in action within the yoga community i was a part of in canada with their moralistic-humourless response to the convid. it was amazing and truly enlightening!
so, for me, there is already the feeling of this is the right thing. as i noted in my essay/supplication, i use an intuitive body process to guide my decisions. those decisions brought me here now and i embrace those decisions because of my experience with them being correct. since the job or jab decision was given to me in 2021, those intuitive choices have become increasingly challenging. and as i embrace them, sometimes with some difficulty as i've written, i've come to feel increasing alive and light and joyful. amazing.
and super amazing to me in the last month has been to come to be able to see and know in my body that 'money', which as you know i've spent a considerable time denigrating in my past, has become something else i've withdrawn from 'blaming and complaining' about. money is simply another of our human creative expressions, a kind of energetic toy that once we depotentiate, will have no power over us. i now understand in my core that money is our most sacred taboo, ie energised scapegoat and idol. unless we are talking in big, vague, disembodied generalities, it is more intimate than sex. (i think our dreams might still be more intimate to our connection with the life force energy of the universe.)
so, i thank you for your well wishes. i receive them with an open heart at this time, while knowing that i've embraced the situation and its ostensible discomfort. and yes, every once in a while, my mind-ego complex steps up and begins to freak out. and then i return to the calmness of my body's awareness and connection to the now. and if total insolvency is to be the expression of this moment, it is to clear some other detritus hiding in my shadows. this body is truly the only thing 100% connected to this now. when we study/follow/feel the breath in meditation, i now realise that those practices of the breath are the gateway into the body. and that it is a kind of distraction or false path to get locked into breath as spirit — aspiration is spirit. hmmmm.
i seem to be rambling a bit. perhaps still parts of me that weigh me down wanting to be cleared away! [headshake.] it does seem this process is truly a fractal-like one! amazing stuff. i appreciate our friendship and your strong engagement with me. you have significantly helped me more than most people in many deep perhaps even profound ways by helping me to see more clearly into my own shadows and those of some of the darker shadowy elements of this thing we call life at this perceived time.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
i receive your wishes and coffee with deep appreciation.
as a sister canadian, you may find my reaction to a canadian friend's condescending response to my situation here interesting. i seem to be moving towards more active agitation against the sleepers in denial.
my friend wrote 'covid is over. no one is talking about it.' in my reply i say 'if no one is talking about it, that means it isn't over.' my reply might be a seed to the quasi-asleep.
all the best in canada with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
You're right, I DO find that interesting and I will be filing that away as a perfect response should anyone be so bold as to say something that ignorant to me. Thank you for your beautiful well wishes and blessings, gratefully received. I've read a lot of your comments today and I'm filled to the brim with thoughts and concepts that I will mull over for quite some time. Canada is poorer for having lost you but I wonder if your old group has been changed by you - I would expect so. I left my meditation group of 9 years just before the CONvid scam and it sure seems it was a good decision. It's so wonderful to find yet another Soul with whom to resonate. Looking forward to reading more from you and maybe taking your course. 🌺
again, i appreciate you giving me the time of your life to read and comment! amazing.
and happy mulling! that is the 'positive' of the great convid for those of us calm enough to have the courage to look at what is, rather than what we are told, narcissistically what we are being told is what is: the great apocalypse, the great reveal. our entire social fabric has been a lie. as i continue my own mulling and research, i am confident to not have confidence in anything i have been told by school or 'science' is true is true. an interesting state of being i fell into.
i am curious what moved you to drop out of 'your' meditation group, if you would like to share.
i wrote about my experience with watching my 'yoga' group go into deep sleep with covid. it was in response to steve kirsch's question, following his inablity to use fact to red-pill people with full frontal truth assaults. you may find it interesting, if you have the room in your still of mulling.
"Steve Kirsch asked "What are the best ways to red-pill someone?" My answer."
(and i posted my letter response to my friend's offer of help here:
"My Moralist Friend And Me — The Letter: My Long and Not Really Funny, Maybe/Hopefully Lightish, Reply to My Friend’s Good Intentioned Moral Plea to Me to Come Back Home to Canada"
Hello Guy - thank you for the interesting links. I was moved to leave my meditation group because I thought I had become dependent on all the rituals (going to classes 2X week and seminars 5 X year) and not really "doing the work" as it were - I was feeling quite content that I was "doing my bit for the world" just by showing up. I have tremendous respect for my teacher and am profoundly grateful for all the help I received over the years from him and his wife and fellow meditators, but it was time to go and test my wings and see what/whom I'd REALLY become and what I should do next. In some respects I felt I had outgrown the group. I am still undertaking a review of all that but in 2020, right at the beginning of the scam scaremongering, I took a bike ride to help process the flying shards of social stress and to bring him and his wife some home made treats. He came out into the drive way, stayed 6 ft away from me and told me I should be wearing the face diaper! That was my confirmation 100% that this was not the group for me anymore. They brought me so far but we had reached the limit I guess. There were other things pre-CONvid that steered me away also but I'm not as comfortable using this platform to share intimate thoughts/details as you are. So hope this suffices.
and i had something similar happen to me, actually. the group that had me make a quantum leap forward between 2014 and 2018 fell from being 'teachers' when i saw that most of them, even the highest in the organisation, had reached a state of comfort that had become in a way, a large sugar coated cage.
like you, my experience with them in the convid was extraordinary. one of the most highly respected gave up on me, disowning me as too toxic to talk to after failing to hear my concerns and thinking i was too stupid to understand his deep appreciation for the 'science(tm)'. and that was that. at one point, when 'things' were relaxing a bit in 2022, i think, the head of the canadian group excitedly announced face-to-face meetings for everyone again! only if you were fully injected, of course. a friend of mine still a part of the group wrote the president and said, citing the all inclusivity foundational principle, 'you aren't honouring your founding principles.' instead of opening it up to all, the head of the organisation cancelled it. hmmmml
all the best with what is changing. everything is changing!
Hola Guy - many, many thanks for sharing your experience. Brought me to tears because I have so much un-shared, un-heard stuff and it's really painful that growing thing eh? I like the description of the "large sugar coated cage." That's a powerful picture. It's just so shocking to have people you respect and admire start babbling like idiots with self-satisfied smirks - I often just reduce to raging lunatic or uncontrollable tears when faced with that kind of thing. But I think that's an area that I'm here to overcome so the rest of me is grateful for the clarity. The small minded part of me would love to know who your group was and where but what does it matter? There are all kinds of people who have become "enemies of life" in all professions and travels, it's just hard to take when you think they've surpassed the low-level submission to the state/peer pressure manipulation kind of life, only to find them picking up their swords against you, who can see so clearly what's going on. Much love to you - I feel comforted to have connected and honoured by your sharing. SMH still ...
Hi Guy, I bought you a cup of coffee. I was in a bit of a maze of the different related substack essays and scanned rather than read some of them but got the gist of what's what. I really appreciate you pointing out the relationship between moving on from the covid story and moving on from those other tragic treacheries. In Australia at the moment, the newly-formed AMPS (Australian Medical Practitioners Society) is hosting a tour conjointly with the New Zealand Doctors Speaking Out for Science. The lead speakers are UK oncologist Professor Angus Dalgleish and Dr Paul Marik from the US. New Zealand and Australian doctors are included as is the lawyer heading the class action for vaccine injured in Australia (over 1000 people signed up so far) and some other beloved hosts. I went to the event here in Brisbane (SE QLD) on Monday night. Good luck with your refugee status.
hola, kerry.
welcome to my writing and i appreciate the coffee! (the coffee in oaxaca is certainly the best i've tasted.)
it is amazing, once we begin to see more clearly what has been done to us, just how 'boringly' repetitive have been the practices of the oligarchs, or whatever we want to call them. totally 'mbas', not a creative thought at all. at the same time, it has worked for a long time, so why would they change? isn't it amazing just how horrific an event it took to wake us up? [headshake.]
although, once seen, omg, their pattern is now pretty much throughout their written history! we are living the great apocalypse for sure.
all the best with the class actions. as you may know, these kinds of lawsuits are being dismissed in the usa because of the managing of the licensing and roll out was the department of defence and is thus not able to be sued. at this time. so, even while the ptb are boringly repetitive, they are also damn clever and thorough. lots of practice of course.
i appreciate your time to read my words and, again, for the coffee. and for your best wishes for my status. someone from canada actually was granted refugee status! amazing, so i've got my fingers crossed.
note: if you prefer audio, i've begun recording my reading the most recent essays. and will likely go back to the older ones as time and inclination permit.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
Sent.
I was shocked to read this...selfishly glad that it wasn't your time to be called onward.
Love to you.
🙏❤️🧘♂️❤️🙏
i receive your love with my even more open heart! y, igualemente, as is said in spanish. my love and respect back to you!
and it has shocked me and others too. my sister also explicitly expressed that she was happy it wasn't my time too!
as i explored this, in this writing and the earlier one, it seems going into near death or close to it is likely the event with enough energy/strength to counter the infancy-trauma of that near death event by my mother. historically i've questioned the early psychological ideas around 'libido' as a psychologically closed energy system posited, especially by freud the 'newtonian' scientist. and now? and after reading 'the inner world of trauma: archetypal defences of the personal spirit' by donald kalsched, i'm not so sure. although jung might have been closer to a deeper understanding of 'libido' when he pointed out that the cure for a neurosis (expression of trauma) requires a 'neurosis' ('traumatic' event) of greater strength. hence the deep bottoms of addicts before the reality of the destructive nature of their addiction is faced. and frequently, that is only the door to the deeper shadow trauma that hasn't yet been faced.
it hints at how difficult it is for anyone to wake up! we are a global community of people, especially the gringos, who have been very systematically and in effective ways traumatised basically since birth — and certainly subsequent to entering the public school domain. uur governmental food and health guidances, 'vaccines', medicines, propaganda, and their supported mostly anti-religious, pseudo 'spiritual' rhetoric through the popular -isms and the promoted literatures and entertainments, are designed to create schismogenisis and 'body' dysphoria. once we are truly separated from the body and live in the mind, we are pretty easy to manipulate. see the lefties lost in a no-land mindscape of crazy ideas.
so, as i realised many years ago, albeit at a more philosophical or perhaps psychological level, when people are given the choice of life or death, i used to kind of condescendingly say 'the vast majority will choose [physical] death.' i've inserted the 'physical' because that is in fact the more gentle death because change of the belief that is required to make a 'real' change is vastly more difficult. it is to face psychological annihilation.
my experience is, imo, an example of the degree to which that psychological death-of-truth can be challenging.
again, sarah, 🙏❤️🧘♂️❤️🙏. much love.
and we don't know, really, when death will knock, and magically the reaper thwarted with cyborgian tech! life really does have a wicked sense of humour!
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
You are a force of joy and light, Guy.
I am so happy that our paths have crossed...and continue to do so.
igualemente! yo también! (me too!)
WOW! Powerful teaching, thank you. ❤️
🙏❤️🧘♂️☯️🧘♂️❤️🙏
Guy, you write so beautifully and this has brought me so much joy. We really do share our interbeing with all and so we are really just giving and receiving from ourselves ❤️. I am so glad you are still with us but I am sorry to hear that the hospital has cleared you out. I hope you get a lot of energy flowing your way. I will help out a little as soon as I can. You are someone I would love to meet, one of a handful of Substackers that has helped me keep my sanity and made life more beautiful during this time of rapid change.
hola shield maiden.
i am doing my snoopy dance that my words have brought to you joy and perhaps even a form of a sanity life preserver in this time of extraordinary tumult and flux, ie, chaos. everywhere we look, the wise people have said much the same things: keep calm, question what is true because seeing truth is hard, trust yourself, and we are a part of the process of life. i really think that gautama put that last bit maybe the best of anyone. william blake might have come close and perhaps walt whitman too, in their ways. however i think that both of them weren't able to ground it properly, despite how both of them extolled the body as central. hmmmm. something to explore, maybe.
thank you for your energy wishes and intention. in pretty short order i will properly set up my 8 week on-line course and that might be an easy way for us to meet, if that might interest you.
"... and made life more beautiful during this time of rapid change." 🙏❤️🧘♂️❤️🙏
this is truly a beautiful statement in this time of extraordinary apocalypse. if you find yourself itching to visit south, oaxaca is a beautiful place with some kind of 'spiritual' energy. i would love to meet you as well.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
I'm so sorry you're going through this, Guy. Your fellow ex-pat halfway around the world, Steve Martin, seems in a similar place. What I wrote in response to his comments was that I hoped he would someday be looking back saying, "Thank goodness that happened because, if not for that, this never would." Wishing that for you too.
hola, tereza.
i assure you that feeling sorry for me, while done with great intention and that i've received with an open heart, is absolutely not necessary. this is part of my yogic process of clearing the samskaras — the really really deep ones. as i wrote in the essay, this has been a truly beautiful spiritual awareness and clearing process. and, at the same time, it also confirms why most people when faced with this challenge back away from it. the yogi-buddhist scholar michael stone has a great way of putting it, paraphrased: after 6 or so years of dedicated true yoga practice, meaning one that includes the yamas and the niyamas, which are the principles of integration by action in the world beyond postures and sitting, the 'true' yogic practice will ask us to renunciate a lot via aparigraha and more broadly, ishvara-pranidhana the embracing of interdependence and the life-energy of the universe. That letting go may include the huge constructed identities we have such as home, marriage, job, country and even yoga itself. And often the ego-mind complex steps in to save us with a mara/devil's bargain because it is afraid and knows how to manipulate the fear of the depths being asked by aparigraha / ishvara-pranidhana. so mara/devil distracts us into a 'super important' and delectably deeper side practice or study or new learning which is the spiritual by-pass. once that is taken the 'yogi' becomes a humourless and often moral experts of some niche or arcane yogic aspect. fascinating stuff, much of which i saw in action within the yoga community i was a part of in canada with their moralistic-humourless response to the convid. it was amazing and truly enlightening!
so, for me, there is already the feeling of this is the right thing. as i noted in my essay/supplication, i use an intuitive body process to guide my decisions. those decisions brought me here now and i embrace those decisions because of my experience with them being correct. since the job or jab decision was given to me in 2021, those intuitive choices have become increasingly challenging. and as i embrace them, sometimes with some difficulty as i've written, i've come to feel increasing alive and light and joyful. amazing.
and super amazing to me in the last month has been to come to be able to see and know in my body that 'money', which as you know i've spent a considerable time denigrating in my past, has become something else i've withdrawn from 'blaming and complaining' about. money is simply another of our human creative expressions, a kind of energetic toy that once we depotentiate, will have no power over us. i now understand in my core that money is our most sacred taboo, ie energised scapegoat and idol. unless we are talking in big, vague, disembodied generalities, it is more intimate than sex. (i think our dreams might still be more intimate to our connection with the life force energy of the universe.)
so, i thank you for your well wishes. i receive them with an open heart at this time, while knowing that i've embraced the situation and its ostensible discomfort. and yes, every once in a while, my mind-ego complex steps up and begins to freak out. and then i return to the calmness of my body's awareness and connection to the now. and if total insolvency is to be the expression of this moment, it is to clear some other detritus hiding in my shadows. this body is truly the only thing 100% connected to this now. when we study/follow/feel the breath in meditation, i now realise that those practices of the breath are the gateway into the body. and that it is a kind of distraction or false path to get locked into breath as spirit — aspiration is spirit. hmmmm.
i seem to be rambling a bit. perhaps still parts of me that weigh me down wanting to be cleared away! [headshake.] it does seem this process is truly a fractal-like one! amazing stuff. i appreciate our friendship and your strong engagement with me. you have significantly helped me more than most people in many deep perhaps even profound ways by helping me to see more clearly into my own shadows and those of some of the darker shadowy elements of this thing we call life at this perceived time.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
Fellow Canadian here Guy -just sent you a little "coffee" substitute. ❤️. All the best to you and thank you for sharing yourself. Much appreciated.
🙏❤️🧘♂️☯️🧘♂️❤️🙏
i receive your wishes and coffee with deep appreciation.
as a sister canadian, you may find my reaction to a canadian friend's condescending response to my situation here interesting. i seem to be moving towards more active agitation against the sleepers in denial.
my friend wrote 'covid is over. no one is talking about it.' in my reply i say 'if no one is talking about it, that means it isn't over.' my reply might be a seed to the quasi-asleep.
all the best in canada with what is changing. everything changes! with peace, respect, love and exuberant joy.
You're right, I DO find that interesting and I will be filing that away as a perfect response should anyone be so bold as to say something that ignorant to me. Thank you for your beautiful well wishes and blessings, gratefully received. I've read a lot of your comments today and I'm filled to the brim with thoughts and concepts that I will mull over for quite some time. Canada is poorer for having lost you but I wonder if your old group has been changed by you - I would expect so. I left my meditation group of 9 years just before the CONvid scam and it sure seems it was a good decision. It's so wonderful to find yet another Soul with whom to resonate. Looking forward to reading more from you and maybe taking your course. 🌺
again, i appreciate you giving me the time of your life to read and comment! amazing.
and happy mulling! that is the 'positive' of the great convid for those of us calm enough to have the courage to look at what is, rather than what we are told, narcissistically what we are being told is what is: the great apocalypse, the great reveal. our entire social fabric has been a lie. as i continue my own mulling and research, i am confident to not have confidence in anything i have been told by school or 'science' is true is true. an interesting state of being i fell into.
i am curious what moved you to drop out of 'your' meditation group, if you would like to share.
i wrote about my experience with watching my 'yoga' group go into deep sleep with covid. it was in response to steve kirsch's question, following his inablity to use fact to red-pill people with full frontal truth assaults. you may find it interesting, if you have the room in your still of mulling.
"Steve Kirsch asked "What are the best ways to red-pill someone?" My answer."
https://gduperreault.substack.com/p/thoughts-covid-reset-yogic-and-uncategorised
(and i posted my letter response to my friend's offer of help here:
"My Moralist Friend And Me — The Letter: My Long and Not Really Funny, Maybe/Hopefully Lightish, Reply to My Friend’s Good Intentioned Moral Plea to Me to Come Back Home to Canada"
https://gduperreault.substack.com/p/my-moralist-friend-and-me-the-letter)
again, 🙏❤️🧘♂️☯️🧘♂️❤️🙏, for giving so freely to me your time, attention and words.
all the best with what is changing. everything changes.
Hello Guy - thank you for the interesting links. I was moved to leave my meditation group because I thought I had become dependent on all the rituals (going to classes 2X week and seminars 5 X year) and not really "doing the work" as it were - I was feeling quite content that I was "doing my bit for the world" just by showing up. I have tremendous respect for my teacher and am profoundly grateful for all the help I received over the years from him and his wife and fellow meditators, but it was time to go and test my wings and see what/whom I'd REALLY become and what I should do next. In some respects I felt I had outgrown the group. I am still undertaking a review of all that but in 2020, right at the beginning of the scam scaremongering, I took a bike ride to help process the flying shards of social stress and to bring him and his wife some home made treats. He came out into the drive way, stayed 6 ft away from me and told me I should be wearing the face diaper! That was my confirmation 100% that this was not the group for me anymore. They brought me so far but we had reached the limit I guess. There were other things pre-CONvid that steered me away also but I'm not as comfortable using this platform to share intimate thoughts/details as you are. So hope this suffices.
hola, zoë.
this is more than sufficient details!
and i had something similar happen to me, actually. the group that had me make a quantum leap forward between 2014 and 2018 fell from being 'teachers' when i saw that most of them, even the highest in the organisation, had reached a state of comfort that had become in a way, a large sugar coated cage.
like you, my experience with them in the convid was extraordinary. one of the most highly respected gave up on me, disowning me as too toxic to talk to after failing to hear my concerns and thinking i was too stupid to understand his deep appreciation for the 'science(tm)'. and that was that. at one point, when 'things' were relaxing a bit in 2022, i think, the head of the canadian group excitedly announced face-to-face meetings for everyone again! only if you were fully injected, of course. a friend of mine still a part of the group wrote the president and said, citing the all inclusivity foundational principle, 'you aren't honouring your founding principles.' instead of opening it up to all, the head of the organisation cancelled it. hmmmml
all the best with what is changing. everything is changing!
Hola Guy - many, many thanks for sharing your experience. Brought me to tears because I have so much un-shared, un-heard stuff and it's really painful that growing thing eh? I like the description of the "large sugar coated cage." That's a powerful picture. It's just so shocking to have people you respect and admire start babbling like idiots with self-satisfied smirks - I often just reduce to raging lunatic or uncontrollable tears when faced with that kind of thing. But I think that's an area that I'm here to overcome so the rest of me is grateful for the clarity. The small minded part of me would love to know who your group was and where but what does it matter? There are all kinds of people who have become "enemies of life" in all professions and travels, it's just hard to take when you think they've surpassed the low-level submission to the state/peer pressure manipulation kind of life, only to find them picking up their swords against you, who can see so clearly what's going on. Much love to you - I feel comforted to have connected and honoured by your sharing. SMH still ...